Friday, October 1, 2010

Ever closer, still so far away

Oh I do like to abandon you, don't I?

My mind has been spread like not enough butter on too much toast this week, I can't seem to keep my thoughts to one thing, let alone all the daily to-do. I've barely made anything this week, barely photographed the things around me...I'm lucky I've eaten!

Something is on my mind- something big, something life changing.

They say it's green light and go, they say it's all down to formalities, but the romantic in me still expects something to go wrong. I don't know what it is in me- whenever I watch a film and I see how happy the couple are, I think 'well some thing's about to go very wrong at any moment'.

This time though, I hope it's one of those times where my worries are for nought. You see my dears, we're waiting for the estate agent to get back to us on the house I mentioned last time, to say those magic words 'your application has been approved'.

The instant my eyes set upon this house, I felt it to be ours. The moment I stood in the back yard and cast my gaze over the long grass, the tiny green shed, the stretching backyard and the sage-and-white paint scheme, I knew it to be ours. I walked in the front door and felt something that a building has not given me in a very long time- a homeness. Big rooms, plenty of windows, a kitchen big enough for a table, French doors, wood fired stove...

Well you can see why I'd be frightened to lose it now, after being so in love for almost 2 weeks. I really feel that this house and I must be allowed. We're going to do great things together.

Alas I don't have much in the way of photos of it, not yet. But when the time comes, and the key burns hot in my hands (and the scrubbing brush in the other!) , you will see a new world.


Angela (Posy Moe) said...

Lovely post. "like not enough butter on too much toast": My new trucker CB handle.

ArtPropelled said...

Holding thumbs that your wish comes true.

Delila Jemaiel said...

i so much wish that this house will be yours, it looks lovely!
i am myself looking a little cottage for rent. hopefully it comes my way soon.


*Debi* said...

Good luck! I hope you get the house :)